It’ll be okay.
That’s the most important thing I have to say to you. It’ll be okay.
You will be okay.
The teasing from the other kids doesn’t mean nearly as much as it feels like it does right now. When you grow up being short doesn’t make you any less awesome. Being smart isn’t something you need to hide. Not being good at sports shouldn’t keep you from enjoying them. (One day your husband will teach you that and it’ll open your eyes to so much fun!)
Speaking of husbands…
He’s out there. The right one, the best one for you. It’s okay to wait for him. The road seems long and hard, I understand, and you’ll think you’ve found him a couple times before you know -and you will know- that he is the one. You won’t doubt, you’ll know by his kindness, his generosity, his faith, his love of family, his willingness to do and care for others. You’ll know by his shyness, his smile, his teasing and his love of laughter. You’ll know him, trust me, just wait, he’s so worth it.
One day being an individual will mean so much to you. This desperate feeling you have to fit in will go away and you’ll wonder why it was ever there in the first place. The people who need you to fit in to a mold to be a part of their lives are the ones you want to leave behind. The people who meet you and love the true you, the ones who feel misfit just like you -hold onto them. They are life’s true blessings. You’ll make real friends, I promise, ones who lift you up and celebrate your quirks. Friends like family -they are out there waiting for you, too.
I know the road in front of you is shadowed and full of big scary things. Giant life questions you can’t begin to wrap your brain around. I know people seem mean and scary, that judgment and teasing make it hard for you to want to be among them. I know you’d rather live in a story book and daydream than face the kids on the bus and at school.
Being a shy introvert will never be easy. You were made that way, and sometimes the world doesn’t understand people who are made differently than most. But God does, he made you that way for a reason. Being shy and introverted will give you a compassionate spirit for other people who have challenges the world doesn’t understand. And compassion is a blessing, don’t wish it away.
I know asking for help is hard, it will always be hard. But, I also know people are basically good. Your parents instill in you a security that many kids don’t have. You have a support group built in this crazy family of yours. They’ll pray you back to the right road when you wonder off. They’ll tell you you are loved no matter how many times you scoff, or how hard it is for you to believe it. They won’t always do everything right, they won’t always understand you. That’s ok. Nobody’s perfect. Just trust they love you. They do.
One day you’ll finally learn that God has blessed you with a hope so big you can’t talk yourself out of if. That he’s molded a heart for people and hands for making. Embrace who you are made to be because your differences make you beautiful. Your journey with faith will be a long one, filled with ups and downs and what feels like more questions than answers. Don’t give up on it, He never gives up on you.
So, little-girl-me, Hard stuff is to come.
Life is hard, but the hard stuff makes the good stuff better -and you a better you. And, oh there will be good stuff too. Great stuff. The things that make your heart nearly burst with love and joy. Unimaginable beauty in everyday life, His glory in unexpected places, laughter so big you’ll fall right out of bed…those things are coming too. Enjoy the journey, you only get the one.
» It has been a long while since I could really call myself a compassion blogger, but this is the month to renew that commitment. I’m joining many who are inspired by their love of helping others to write and share it in our spaces. I’m a Compassion sponsor and so much of what I would tell my little-girl-self I want to tell my kiddo. ‘You are loved.’ Chief among them. What things would you like to tell your child-self?