I’ve been thinking a lot about waiting recently…
Waiting for the right date on the calendar. Waiting for the right feeling. Waiting for someone else to make the first move. Waiting for a specific event, a sign. Waiting for the fear to go away.
You could wait yourself into nothingness. You could wait and never do.
When my husband’s father and grandmother had a major life altering car accident in November we had been stuck in a cycle of endless waiting. But like life altering things do -we were shaken- woken up to the fact that The Time Is Now. No guarantees, no better day, no better occasion, or prefect moment.
I had been gifted a lovely journal for my birthday and I was waiting to use it. Saving it for a really good reason to”mess up” the crisp, clean, pretty pages. Saving it for January 1st perhaps, or the day we got a positive pregnancy test. You see I love journals, I love writing, but sometimes the possibility in a bright and shiny new something leaves you paralyzed with finding just the *right* moment, the right inspiration, the perfect words.
Here’s the thing-
There is no *right*, there is no perfect.
The whole of life is one big beautiful imperfect mess. You can’t order and organize it out. Oh, you can try, you can tell yourself that if you wait things fall into place or you can wait until you force them there. And then life can drop a bomb in the middle of your tidy plans and remind you: If Not Now Then When?
Don’t take your moments for granted, you could lose years in a well of waiting. You could lose joy and laughter and time with loved ones to that well. Open up to the hard things, take a deep breath and step into the scary places, make a choice for importance and let go or show up as needed. Take a deep breath and breathe through it. Even on the days you’re shattered and think you can’t go on, you do. It’s amazing and crazy and you’ll say “I can’t believe I did that. ” The things you’ll learn about yourself and the people in your life might surprise you. You might find that an awkward, shaky step forward feels really good and leads to another. You might find yourself re-engaged and re-energized for life. Step out in faith, jump in fear, get going friend -the time is now!