Right now: it’s 7:39am, and I’ve been awake about 40 minutes.
Right now: I’m thinking about having a second cup of Chili Chai tea with cinnamon honey because I woke up with a headache.
Right now: I believe I really need to learn to drink more water consistently.
Right now: I’m anticipating kissing the guy next to me when he leaves for a tractor pull in twenty minutes.
Right now: I’m contemplating a strange dream in which I got married again to this same guy. In a park with too many people, and with dishes that don’t match for the reception that nobody noticed until it was too late. -and which overwhelmed me making me hide in the bathroom.
Right now: I’m remembering what it felt like to wake up to fear and horror on the news many years ago; where I was, how it felt, how I prayed, how we rallied in the aftermath.
Right now: I begin and end my days with tiny pale blue pills, and I sprinkle little cream colored ones all along the path from one to another.
Right now: I’m excited that with these cool morning temps and the coming of Fall comes a renewed routine with favorite people and a little more structure to my weeks.
Right now: I’m thankful for ‘yes’s where I thought there would be ‘no’s. -Yes, you can have a reduced price. Yes, I can go on a trip with you. Yes, I understand the anxiety. Yes, I’ll help you figure it out. Yes, it will be ok.
Right now: I’m going to drink my tea, try to focus only on the concerns of today, and start my day with a willing spirit.